Let me start this post by stating that I am a weak and struggling Christian. I try to avoid church because a lot of preachers scare me, about half the time that I am praying, it’s only because I need something, and the worst part about it all, is that many of the villains in my life have been “devout Christians”. I am WEAK, WEAK, WEAK, but I still believe.
A little more than a year ago, I got a job that I thought was supposed to be a good deal, an answer to a prayer. I was quick to learn that things were not as they seemed, that there is very regular lying and cheating and stealing from the government, and it is very difficult to prove. I thought that if I just turned a blind eye to it and did what I was supposed to do, that maybe I could still make a relatively successful career out of it, or at least get a foot in the door to move on elsewhere. It didn’t turn out that way. After spending a year enduring humiliation and harassment because I would not bend to my manager’s ill will, I finally complained to his supervisor. The harassment just got worse. I complained to the state governing authority, and the harassment got even worse. The harassment has become so intense that I was certain I was at the end of my rope.
This morning, when I went to bed (I work night shifts), I prayed harder than I have prayed in a long time, for God to get me out of this mess, or at least to give me some sort of sign as to what I should do. Tonight, when I went to work, my boss came up there, drunk as usual, for the sole purpose of starting an altercation with me. It got pretty heated, and I ended up telling him that ‘if you would put down that beer bottle long enough to have a sober conversation, you might understand that I am NEVER going to lie and cheat for youGod gives me the strangest answers.
that he fired me.
I have set up a secure Paypal account for donations, in hopes that I can raise enough money to go home and open an awesome Hobby shop. Maybe God will give me an answer there to, or at least one that I can understand.